Party & Bullshit
Lately I've been doing A LOT of reflecting since this time two years ago I was living in NYC trying to live a pipe dream of being a fashion model. An emotional train wreck I was. It's so hard for me to believe that my priorities were over indulging in alchol, partying until the sun came up and trying to be something that wasn't ever in my heart. All of that created an eating disorder that screwed my whole world up.
At that time I never looked at my drinking as a problem or my late night drunken food binges as a problem because I was so cloudy minded from the continuous nights of all out partying. Now don't get me wrong I did have some fun times up there that I'll never forget but for the most part my life was going no where and I write this today because several emails I get are from the age groups 14 to early 20's. I don't want you to have to make the same wrong decisions I did. When I look at these old pictures I'm disgusted with the way I look. I really had no idea how depressed and awful I looked and felt until later after all of it passed.
Fast forward to now I'm a completely different person. Week by week my body is changing and coming together how I've always envisioned it thanks to Hany's guidence. In 2007 when I originally wanted to get into the modeling industry my original goal was to grace the covers of fitness magazines and be an educator to all of the knowledge I've learned. I've never felt the way I do now...I guess I needed some time to grow up When you read this I want you to know that you can make change on your own life and struggles. As long as you have the drive and determination to make change you can do it! Life is too short to be unhappy.
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